I guess if something feels off or you don’t feel like you’ve got the whole truth, you’d be right in feeling that way. When someone doesn’t fully choose you, it doesn’t matter what they say, you feel it and sadly I don’t think this is the first time it’s happened.
I was a little more than what you’ve been told and as recent as two days ago, I was reminded of how much he wished we had worked it out because he still wanted it to be that way. I think the down playing of my role is so that you will allow him to keep me in his life and the reasons why, while technically true, they don’t make sense to you and that’s probably because there is more to it, he’s choosing not to tell you.
I will keep this short and part of me hopes you never need to come looking for it because he finally decided to do the right thing by you and your daughter. I have a pile of letters, one for every day, sometimes two or three while he was away because I was more than what he said if you’d like me to show you. And if you are reading this I’m sorry you were lied to again. I don’t know if he has the capacity to do anything else, he certainly doesn’t have the want and you deserve better than this happening every time to you I hope you know.
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